Saturday, November 15, 2014

What is my diagnosis?

I went to my GP last week so they could fill out the annual form that says I'm fit to drive. It's this section that relates to me.





So have a guess which boxes my Dr. ticked. You probably guessed correctly.

Seizures and Space-occupying Lesion (brain tumour) but not Epilepsy. Ok so for the last ? years it's been Epilepsy but not now, is it no longer that? It is that isn't it?! What is it? I questioned her, 'umm why didn't you tick Epilepsy' 'well it's the tumour that gave you the seizures' 'well yes but I've been told it's caused me to have Epilepsy so why aren't you ticking it you used to tick it?'. She then ticked it and drew a line linking Epilepsy to Space-Occupying Lesion.

I'm so confused! Make up your mind Dr.s. Just tell me what I have! Write it down on a piece of paper in layman's terms so I know what to tick on my forms. Also how do I explain this to people? Epilepsy or not? Should I say 'I have brain tumours so they sparked  seizures but it's not Epilepsy' or do I say 'My brain tumours triggered Epilepsy but because it's caused by brain tumours it's not really Epilepsy but at the same time it is'! Are you confused too?

This is too tricky. I just want to get into bed and hope that when I wake up all of this has just been a dream!





p.s this is a beautiful soundtrack! I find it very calming!