I haven't blogged for a while, apologies.
When I start typing I'll usually delete the first few lines and start afresh. I've already done this about 3 times and by about the 4th attempt I tell myself 'just write the damn thing' so I'm not changing this intro. I'm just going to type the blog!
The last few weeks have been challenging but rewarding. School started three weeks ago and I whilst I am extremely tired at the end of each day I am really happy to be back at work. It has given me a boost of confidence and again reminded me of how I am constantly improving. I've remained in my class for most of the recess and lunch breaks we
have at work so that I can have some quiet time and catch my breath, clear my head and prepare myself for the next lot of trouble makers. This has definitely been helpful in getting me through each day. I
haven't asked another teacher to step in so I can have a quick break but
did warn them that I may need some help. Thankfully I haven't needed this help.
Surgery was just over 5 months ago now. The time has flown but at the same time the healing process is a long one. Whilst I am glad surgery was "quite some time ago" I have been disappointed or perhaps more frustrated recently that most people who see me and know I have been through surgery think I am completely back to my pre-op self. It's really quite upsetting. I hope it's something that they never have to experience so I suppose I can't really expect empathy but I do hope for some sympathy when I give them a gentle reminder that I am not yet 100% better. Having said this I feel like I'm almost there.
I love reading other people's blogs and the detail that some put into them is fantastic but I always wonder how long it must take them to type up such detailed accounts of their day/week/month. I don't have the memory or enough concentration to go into such detail so here is a list of things that has happened in the last month.
- another visit to the Dr.s
- waiting anxiously for the letter from the Department of Transport informing me I am clear to drive
- wasted $80+ dollars on medication as I forgot to take my medication out of the car and it so happened to be 46 degrees that day
- no migraines
- I returned to the gym
- new haircut/colour
- ventured into public/work without wearing a headband for the first time since surgery
On the non-medical side of things
- my brother turned 21 so now I'm feeling quite a bit older
- started house hunting and am not enjoying it
- experienced the hottest day/summer on record in South Australia and our house survived without air-conditioning.
- packed a bag for possible emergency evacuation as there was an uncontrolled bushfire in the nearby national park
- first "usual" paycheck since last September
- became addicted to online UNO
- Watched almost every episode of Downton Abbey
I'm feeling quite happy at the moment. I'm happy with life but excited for change. I'm particularly happy at the moment because I FINALLY received the news that I can drive again. Welcome back independence! I must admit I am quite nervous to drive independently, especially during peak hour so I will probably be venturing to work earlier than usual and leaving a tad later.
On another note, I wanted to share a TED talk. I watched it the other day when I was having some quiet time in my classroom. It's about Introverts, the positive side, which is nice to hear. As I was listening to it I was thinking to myself 'yup that's me, yup that too, and that' but it also made the point that us introverts aren't constantly introverrted, which I think was a very important thing to remember. I suppose I wanted to share this talk because I think it helps explain why being quiet, not seeking attention and enjoying solitude, doesn't mean you don't have a story to tell, an idea to share or don't connect with people. Whilst writing this blog doesn't appear to be a characteristic that an introvert might display in a way it is actually a reflection of me being a bit of an introvert. It has allowed me to ponder, reflect and search for the positive side of my situation in, what you might call, a quiet way instead of talking about it with every second person like others might. It is also a way of me connecting with others, probably sounds weird to extroverts but sorry that's the truth. Anyway if you're a bit of an introvert like me, I hope you can understand why I am posting this. It's not directly linked to my health but at the same time it is.
Go Introverts!
